Saturday, January 12, 2008
Friday, December 28, 2007
Apologies
I'm so sorry. I lost my phone in the Minneapolis St. Paul airport. Hence, no pictures of Grant. I hope to either find my phone or replace it soon.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Saturday, December 22, 2007
Friday, December 21, 2007
Thursday, December 20, 2007
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Sunday, December 16, 2007
Friday, December 14, 2007
Thursday, December 13, 2007
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
Monday, December 10, 2007
Sunday, December 09, 2007
Tennessee
I know I haven't posted a pic in a few days. I sent one in, but it didn't ever post. It happens sometimes, and I get frustrated. However, I will ramble a bit about the weekend.
I enjoy spending time with my mom. However, my trips to TN over the last year and a half have been difficult. I barely remember the drive on July 5th, 2006. Now I know just about everything about the route- we even have certain waitresses at the Cracker Barrel at exit 77 that we recognize. We've made the trip a lot. This drive was better. There was no illness to deal with. It was like a normal visit. No dreading or worrying or feeling guilty.
Being at the house is interesting, too. Its like Daddy's just out. Everywhere I turn, I'm reminded of "Sick Daddy." The whole time he was in that house, he was sick. Troy sat in his chair at the table. I laid on his orange sofa. I stripped the bed he died in because Grant spit up on the sheets. I had trouble sleeping because I was listening for him falling.
Speaking of falling, Mom tripped off a curb at a restaurant yesterday. She was wet and embarrassed. I started to cry once I got her inside. It was like Daddy again. I looked around the corner of the car, and she was laying on the pavement with a dazed look on her face. It scared me a lot.
I guess the point of this is that I thought I was doing pretty well. I've been amazed at how I can look at the pictures of Daddy on my desk at work and not bawl. I can talk about my dad, most of the time, with peace. But being at the house again really took me back to a sad and maddening state.
I still miss my Daddy.
I enjoy spending time with my mom. However, my trips to TN over the last year and a half have been difficult. I barely remember the drive on July 5th, 2006. Now I know just about everything about the route- we even have certain waitresses at the Cracker Barrel at exit 77 that we recognize. We've made the trip a lot. This drive was better. There was no illness to deal with. It was like a normal visit. No dreading or worrying or feeling guilty.
Being at the house is interesting, too. Its like Daddy's just out. Everywhere I turn, I'm reminded of "Sick Daddy." The whole time he was in that house, he was sick. Troy sat in his chair at the table. I laid on his orange sofa. I stripped the bed he died in because Grant spit up on the sheets. I had trouble sleeping because I was listening for him falling.
Speaking of falling, Mom tripped off a curb at a restaurant yesterday. She was wet and embarrassed. I started to cry once I got her inside. It was like Daddy again. I looked around the corner of the car, and she was laying on the pavement with a dazed look on her face. It scared me a lot.
I guess the point of this is that I thought I was doing pretty well. I've been amazed at how I can look at the pictures of Daddy on my desk at work and not bawl. I can talk about my dad, most of the time, with peace. But being at the house again really took me back to a sad and maddening state.
I still miss my Daddy.
Thursday, December 06, 2007
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
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